I am so grateful for my friends. What would I do without them? I am not talking about drinking buddies or people who appear after such along time that I forgot who they were. I am talking about people who are reliable, sane, and who push you to your limit. Those who want the beat for you. Yes they might be countable but they are better than nothing. I have friends who I can have real conversations with. They build me up at the same time giving me positive criticism. I don’t know what or where I would be without them.
Last week I was experiencing such a hard time, let’s just say the time and days and attitude had turned against me. As usual I did my daily routine; you know getting up, making my bed, showering, eating, brushing then going to work. It so happened that I was waking up on the wrong side of the bed each time. Damn! I mean were the stars not aligned in my way, was God trying to punish me for being a sinner?
Someone decided to be mean to me over and over and over again. As if that wasn’t enough the days just seemed so long. Just never ending. Have you ever been in such a scenario? Let’s just say that things were just horrible. I hated how things were going. I think she was determined to make me miserable. Oh I hated what I was feeling inside.
Fast forward to Saturday, I was going about my business and while in the matatu I blocked all thoughts, hoodied up and just let go. I cried. I don’t know where those feelings were coming from but it felt so good to just let it all out. During the week though a friend called to find out if I was fine. Man, I don’t know where I would have been without her and her concern.
The task I was going to do on Saturday would have been cancelled, but you know what? We soldier on. Right? No giving up, no giving in.
Before the weekend ended someone else called just to check up and I was scolded because I didn’t send a “CODE RED”. All it would have taken for me not to be in such a situation was to just call. Come to think of it,why didn’t I?
Every single day I am reminded that I am loved no matter the situation, no matter who or what makes me feel bad and sad. I always strive to remember that. When i I get the ” I love you texts” or “we just wanted to check up on you” calls it really means a lot.
Go back to your friends list. Start picking them out, weed and uproot. Only the true friends will shine bright like a diamond.
Shout out to Fiona, Amanda, Dominion and Zippy.?
